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i left my heart in ohio

Sometimes, when one is buried in beautiful wedding photos and smothered by deadlines, you have to stop everything and go through photos you took on a trip over five months ago......

You know how there are certain people in your life that are more like pieces of your heart? Meet 4 pieces of our hearts that live in a far far away land called Ohio: Ryan, Martha, their kids Cady and Lennon, their fur child Oscar, AND (not pictured, but existing nonetheless) their bun in the oven. Having a piece of me live across the country is one of the most painful and indescribable experiences this life could possibly inflict on a heart. It's a level of homesickness you can only understand by first hand experience. And I hate every minute of it.

If you've come to my blog to look at pretty wedding photos, keep scrolling -- you'll find them.
But it's been a while since I've posted anything personal... so there you have it.

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Creatures : Siren

Siren : a beautiful, yet dangerous creature who lures nearby sailors with her enchanting voice to shipwreck on the rocky coast of her island.

Creatures . PART TWO

>> Siren <<

{hair & makeup: Rhyan Townsend | mermaid fin: FinFun}

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Creatures : Faery

"Those who dream by day are cognizant of many things that escape those who dream only at night."
>> Edgar Allan Poe <<

I am a daydreamer and a night-thinker.
My imagination is wild and untamed.
Inside my head, exists a world quite unlike this one - full of mythological creatures, oddities, and weirdly beautiful sights.

Sometimes, I set my imagination loose on this world............

Creatures . Part One
>> Faery <<

{hair & makeup by: Rhyan Townsend | florals by: Lilies of the Field}

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#3mamasgobabygirl

sometimes, you just have to run away to Sonoma with two of your best friends.
I definitely planned on taking more photos. but as it turned out, I got too busy LIVING.

p.s. don't worry about the hashtag. it will never make sense.
p.p.s. if you ever want a cozy place to stay in Sonoma, this AirBnB is the only way to go.

{I stole the photo above from my photographer-counterpart, Lindsey Gomes}

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Actually, I CAN.

we as human beings are so freaking hard on ourselves. we tear ourselves down and believe we are incapable.
but as it turns out, you can do ANYTHING you put your mind to. you are, in fact, VERY capable of incredible things.

these days, it is so easy to make our lives appear flawlessly wonderful. we choose what to show and what to keep hidden.
but as it turns out, everyone is fighting some sort of battle. everyone is dealing with some sort of insecurity.

that being said, I wanted to share something about myself with you.
as some people know, I have never taken a photography class in my life. everything I know about the art and action of photography I have learned by playing with my camera, by trial & error. which is great, because that is just how I learn best. however, it's also not so great because I never learned the basics of shooting film - how a light meter works, what settings to use for what different situations, how some numbers affect other numbers, blah blah blah. the technical side of my camera has terrified me from the moment I got my first DSLR at age 16. I have used the safety net of the screen on the back of my camera for TEN YEARS. and recently I have been really, really hard on myself for not knowing the basic knowledge of what I thought "made you a photographer."

so I set out to change that.

my 2015 resolution was to learn how to shoot film. on manual -- all the logic and smarts that I didn't think I had.
I purchased a Canon EOS-3 on eBay, ordered some film, and got to work. I had NO idea what I was doing, because I couldn't see the photos I was taking on the back of my camera any more. I had no security blanket of an LCD screen telling me "these photos look GREAT!" when the shutter on a film camera closes, you'd better hope your settings were right or else that moment is lost in a world of under-or-over-exposure forever.

it took me a couple months, but I got through my first 2 rolls of film: one B&W and one color.
then it took me several weeks to work up the courage to send them in to be processed.
I had convinced myself that the photos were shit and was hoping that at least ONE of my 60 exposures would "turn out".

friday night, I got my photos back.
and much to my disbelief, every single one of my exposures was on point.
yeah, some of them were a tad overexposed. some of them weren't focused to perfection. but to me -- they were perfect.
and I had doubted myself and my ability SO HARD. all for nothing.

....

I share this with you because I want you to know that I'm still learning.
we are ALL still learning.
the moment we stop learning is the moment we should be afraid of.
my hope for you is that you BELIEVE IN YOUR OWN GREATNESS.
because, as I said before, you are capable of incredible things.

^ this last one was actually taken by my sweet husband :)

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